don't you worry child. see heaven's got a plan for you.

so tomorrow's a big day for me. it's the day i'm turning eighteen. 18. EIGHTEEN. the day i become legal and, well, old. so before i tell you what i think about my birthday, i'll show you what my friends have done for me. 

they've kept me at breakfast for as long as possible, while the others blow air into endless balloons. i walked in and this is all i saw.

i'm grateful. so grateful. they've celebrated my birthday almost a week early with me, so i can feel the love. it's great knowing someone else cares for you no matter what. especially when i'm so far away from home. i've got lovely friends and i'm grateful. not to mention this is the only good thing that has happened to me all month (or even term). thank you beth, jade, eddy and sasha. i love you guys.

well 18. what can i say? or what should i say? right now i'm not even sure if i want to turn eighteen or not. eighteen. well i've been looking forward to it my whole life, since i was a child; but you know, if turning into an adult comes with all the stress, heartbreaks and misfortunes, i just want to stay young. well i just don't want to age anymore. ageing is very tiring and maybe i want the good old days back. when the most stressful thing is to make sure my uniform wasn't creased when i went to school. i want to go back to those days, but it's too late. too late.

but anyways, all thing aside. happy birthday sam. happy eighteenth. may you have an amazing life from this point onwards. forget about the heartbreaks and all the misfortune. your life is waiting ahead of you. all you need to do is just go grab it and never let go. if things or people are yours, they'll stay. don't worry child. happy birthday you little noob. don't ever change. one thing: learn to love yourself please. you're better than you think you are.

happy birthday, ma cherie. happy birthday, me.

a letter from a daughter to her mother

dear mom,

i hope you're having an awesome day. i'm not a very eloquent person and not a very great daughter. i'm too timid to say this right to your face, so i'm doing this here. 

happy birthday! i'm sorry i can't be here today for your big day. i'd just want to wish you a good coming year and that may all the sorrows be gone. i know i have been a shit difficult daughter, but all i want to say is that i do really love you, from the bottom of my heart. i promise. 

let's make a list of all the things i've upset you and how i'm going to improve:

• going out too often - i promise i'd go out less, and be more of a couch potato
• eating all the snacks at home - i won't eat less, but i'll remind you to get more food
• getting too many movies on iTunes - i'll rent them and i'll save money
• dying my hair part blonde - never will i make that mistake again. asian and proud
• spending too much in general - but hey, a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do
• being insensitive - i'll try to notice more
• not calling home enough - there's no way to dodge this, my bad. i'll call home more often
• sleeping too much - you all who don't know me in person, it's a problem. no joke. i'll sleep less
• getting tattoos without you knowing - but now that the cat's out of the bag. i'll tell you if i get more

last but not least:

• i'll be a better daughter, i'd care more and i'll notice. i'll tell you what i feel like and i'll listen to you. i promise i'll be the best daughter you'll ever come across. i'll spend more time with you, not because it's the right thing to do, but because i want to and i care.

mommy, i do love you, even though sometimes i don't show it (it's hard sometimes when i'm not home, i promise i'll try to show it more often). you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. or let's say without you, there won't be me. you're the reason why i am who i am today and i thank lord for giving you to me, instead of some other crappy mother (not that i know if she'd be crappy or not, but hell, she's not you, so yeh she'd be crappy). i am so lucky i got you as my mother and i love you.

you're the most beautiful women i've ever met. nothing will ever change this and you're the most important person in my world. for you birthday, i wish you good health and good humour all the time, so you'll be able to one day in the far future see your grandchildren and joke about my ever horizontal-growing body. because it's a mother-daughter thing to joke about each other's sizes :)

mommy, you've probably heard this enough today, but happy birthday one last time. i hope you'd have a wonderful day and i love you. always.

with lots of love and kisses,

mobee

she is the combination of sexy and cute. original i know.

mommy, you're so beautiful. i wish you can see it more often.

daddy and mommy are the cutest couple i've ever seen. i love you both.

us now, the whole family

momma with long hairr <3

momma and my baby <3 aren't they just so cute 

a family picture 7 years ago. minus the oh-so-annoying god-bro. mommy you look the same now. you don't look a day over twenty

disclaimer: all these pictures have never ever been seen anywhere. momma, if you see these pictures, i have taken a long time to choose them so please please don't make me take them down. you're a beautiful woman and i want the world to see.