i know i haven't posted in a while, but i just felt like i needed some time to myself. to just rethink my life and my goal (again). having time to yourself is so important and i cannot stress it enough.
well, 2013 has been one of the (excuse my language) shittiest years of my life. hell, it was the shittiest. things just did not work out. heartbreak after heartbreak. disappointment after disappointment. i even contemplated on killing myself. it was that bad. BUT it's all over now, isn't it? 2014 it's a brand new year.
2014 has been great up till now. i'm happy. i feel motivated and i feel like i can conquer the world. with the support of my loved ones, i know i'm invincible. i guess i was just too proud and ignorant to see that last year and concentrated on the people who did not matter in my life. maybe it's time to just stop caring what other people saw of me. that's one of my
another one of my new year resolutions is to lose weight. i've lost 7 kg since the end of november last year, so i'm feeling pretty good about myself. if you're thinking: "sam, but you just said you're not gonna care what people think anymore." i'm not. i just want to be the best version of myself. i want to look in the mirror and like what i see. that's all. i mean, if other people are going to be mean, they'll always find ways. i just want to be healthy and have that amazing bikini body. it's my year after all. also i'm only eighteen once. if this is not the time i get the perfect body and flaunt it, when would be the perfect time?
i guess after i've entered adulthood, i've really matured. i've always believed that life isn't about the results but the ride, BUT i think maybe the result is important too. you know what you're aiming for and you work hard for it. that was the thing that was missing last year. i wasn't focused. i didn't have a plan, but now i do. the future actually looks fairly bright. maybe i can actually succeed for once. wish me luck.
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