i have a dentist who's over seven feet tall

Now that you have had a chance to look over the photos, in the first one you might not have noticed that the lady has an extra finger on her hand. In the second one we have an extra arm resting on the guys shoulder and in the last one the guy is missing an ear. So what do you think? Was the add successful is demonstrating that food remaining on your teeth will draw more attention away from you than any physical defect?

i like my teeth clean

this shows my exact views on dental health care and hygiene. a nice smile is always more preferable than a dirty one. so i went with the rest of my siblings to our annual dentist appointment. my brother went first, as the guinea pig that he always has been, to get his teeth cleaned and polished. then it was my turn. it hurt quite a bit, as he drilled my gums with a driller to get the dirt out (gross i know, but hey i thought you'd want the details, even the gory ones). 

polishing was no big deal, it was like putting little rocks on your teeth and the dentist literally polished my teeth with them. the highlight of polishing is when you still have rocks in your mouth that you haven't rinsed out. it's like biting sand, but sweet sand. how cool is that?

yeh the process did hurt a bit and blood did gush out (again, gory details), but it was definitely worth it. the dentist said:"sam, you've got such white teeth. maybe if school doesn't work out, you can try being a toothpaste / teeth model!"

i hope school doesn't work out, so i can see my face on billboards and on buses. i'd be able to say and even scream:"i'm that famous teeth model. you see my teeth on buses and on billboards and even taxis!"

my teeth now sparkle under any kind of light. yes.

ラーメン博物館

so i went to japan for a few days and things went well. too well. i gained at least 5 pounds and i'm not even joking. i've learnt that money spent is directly proportional to the money spent. one of the highlights of the trip was definitely going to the momofuku ando instant ramen museum.

we didn't plan this. i dropped the guide on the ground and it opened on this page. talk about destiny and all that jazz, but it did happen. my brother decided he wanted some souvenirs for some friends, and so we went. going there really wasn't that big of a deal, but making our own cup noodles was just bomb. 

each of the noodle cup is 300 yen (about 24 HKD or 3 USD). not exactly expensive for a souvenir, but extremely expensive for a cup noodle. well as the big spenders that we are, our family got 18. we were also given big markers to draw on them and so we did. i'm just gonna say i'm a child at heart. the one that i've kept for myself looks like this.

front of my artwork

and the back of it.

i must say my design is rather dashing

18 of these. it was a pain to bring back home i must say.

after we've drawn on them, the processing begins. first, we were given the noodles. i mean if you aren't given the noodles, it defeats the point of just going there. however they first put the noodles in upside down, and the machine turns it over, so the noodles would be in the cup in the right way without sticking out. clever right? one of the good things about working in these corporates is that they do think of all the details. like pixar. if you don't know about my love for pixar, click ME to see it.

it's like a small cup-noodled ferris wheel

then it comes to packaging it. they use a plastic bag to seal everything, food and all. in order to make sure the bag is sealed and tight-fitted, they use a heating mechanism to make the plastic stick onto the cup. do i know the science behind? no i don't, but it sure looks good.

after it's all done, we get to put them in plastic bags that can be filled up with air and used as air sacs. another really clever invention by a japanese company. i approve, momofuku ando. kudos to you.

and there's me with all of the finished products

you might think: "sam, you've travelled half way across osaka to go to a museum and make instant noodles?"

well the answer to that is, yes i have. was i thrilled to have gone? well sort of, but not really. on the other hand, it was great, because my brother had so much fun. my brother is a very very sweet boy, who doesn't really mind going with us to anywhere as long as we are happy. this time round though, he was the one who told us he wanted to go and all, and i'm glad we did. to see the smile on my brother's face when the final product came out was priceless. too bad i didn't snap it down with my camera, but it was definitely worth every single penny.

future's so bright i gotta wear shades.

today was just like any other day. nothing much happened and just as i was having my last check on the internet before bed, i came across this.

520 views?! i only started this blog a month ago and i guess i have made quite a lot of progress. to all those who read my blog, thank you for your support. to those who don't, you can start if you want to. i won't force you. this is just a platform for me to express my rarest and rawest feelings.

however this is quite a large number for a nobody like me, so i'm pretty pleased. thank you all again for all the support!

by the way, even though it's the end of summer soon, i got new shades. whooop. happy sam is happy. very very happy.

rain, rain, go again another day.

my sister has been out of the country for a whole week now and today's the day she's finally coming back. i woke up with a really good mood, thinking: "i can see chloe. yay."

then my mood worsened. it started raining. bummer. in order to show my frustration, i drew this.

this is literally what i've been doing all morning. i might even start my own rain dance club at home to make it stop.

this isn't really the way i want to introduce me (well, my little character). i don't really have a name for her other than lil sam. well she's little and she's me, so i guess either lil me or lil sam would be a perfect and appropriate choice for a name. i don't really have any creativity when it comes to naming things (i named my dog little sister in chinese. it's great)

but yeh. here you go guys. i present to you *drum-roll* lil sam. 

quite a stroll down memory lane.

"i walk down memory lane because i know that i'll run into you there." - unknown

i am a very sentimental being and i always try to avoid looking at old photos. photos are there for a reason: to remind you of the past and to look forward to making new memories. i, as a kid, had always loved taking pictures and being taken. however, as i grew up, i started drifting away from the whole modelling-for-a-camera business and started taking pictures of my own. first it was a white sony cybershot. then it was a white olympus e pl-1. now i am a proud owner of a canon 600d. 

picture quality is getting better and better, but the feeling while taking photos does not necessarily correspond with the quality. the first thing that popped into mind was "hell, why would i wear something like this?", or "wow, i was skinny once", or even "thank god i don't pose like this anymore". then i looked again. yes, the quality of the pictures are incomparable with the ones now, but look at me. look at us. everything is so genuine. going on my first boat trip, going to japan for the first time, feeding my dad's horse for the first time. these are all so nostalgic to me. 

i've always been a lucky girl. my family is on the wealthy side of the spectrum. we're not the wealthiest, but we're ok. travelling has always been on the family summer agenda. japan, usa, canada, hawaii, singapore, cambodia. these places we've all been. that's why i'm getting used to the fact that we travel a lot. don't get me wrong, i still get excited when i go, but nowhere near how excited i once was when i first set foot in the tokyo airport. 

walking down memory lane isn't about finding my childhood crush, or that odd person who always went on the same trip as us (trust me, there were families that went to the same trips with us and we didn't even know them). it's about finding myself. that feeling of adventure and experiencing new things. i love my life now, but sometimes it's always good to just take a moment to recap the past. 

to all that are disillusioned or down for the moment, 

things will work out at the end. you've done great so far and don't let one thing bring you down. i know everyone's got bad moments, but please you can do it as long as you believe you can. it's all worth it at the end of the day. 

this is obviously a posed photo.

i haven't seen my brother in swimming trucks for 3 years. this is greeeaaat.

we just looked so happy.

all i want is the wind in my hair, to face the fear but not feel scared

"me? i'm scared of everything! i'm scared of what i saw. i'm scared of what i did, of who i am. and most of all, i'm scare of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life... the way i feel when i'm with you!" - baby, "dirty dancing"

pretty much sums up my fears

i guess people deal with their fears everyday. i'm not afraid of many things; i'm fearless, but i'll always be scared no matter how old i grow. the worst. definitely knowing you don't matter anymore to someone. that's the worst. oh and bugs. they creepy too.

i can't live for anybody, i gotta live my life for me

sometimes in life, we all lose our aim and goal. it's the same with me right now. just like what tom hansen in "500 days of summer" has said:

bro, i second that. HOWEVER, i don't think living in the past and forgetting about the future is what we should do, so i'm just going to tell you 50 things you probably didn't know about me. just to give you an idea what i am actually like, and to give me a moment just to recap on my life as a whole. things are gonna be fine at the end. it can only be so hard in the process.

1. i have very small hands. my palm is 8 cm long and my whole hand is 16 cm long (middle finger. gotta count the longest finger).
2. i like any kind of green candy. doesn't matter if it's lime, green apple or even grass. if it's green, i'm sold.
3. i have a phobia of breaking my shoes. so if i really like a pair, i would always get a back-up pair.
4. blue is my favourite colour. especially baby blue. always has been and always will be.
5. i don't wear rings, because i lose them. i only have two pinky ones that my brother got me.
6. my phone's always on vibrate, but when it's not, my ringtone's the batman theme song and i sing to it all the time.
7. i've always gone to a girls' school. this explains my inadequacy in socialising with the opposite sex. 
8. i can't cook.
9. i watch way too many cartoons for my own good. it's my guilty pleasure.
10. speaking about guilty pleasures, i've watched footloose and i know all the words to it.
11. i cannot get the hang of replying messages. i just can't cope with all things people want to say to me.
12. when someone fullstops me in a text message, i think they're mad at me.
13. i used to play the piano and the violin. now i play the harp and the guitar. typical asian parents forcing their children into playing an instrument. 
14. i never play my toenails, but i paint my nails every other day.
15. i'm 1/8th thai. 
16. i collect bottle caps and lighters. 
17. i have three tattoos and i'm planning on getting more. not big ones, but tiny, discrete ones.
18. i am agyrophobic. i run when i cross roads.
19. i use anything, and i stress ANYTHING, as a bookmark. sometimes even money. whatever's near man #confessionsofalazyperson
20. eyeshadow doesn't go with my face, but i still keep getting them thinking i would be able to rock it.
21. never will i cut my hair short. never.
22. i put my hair up in a bun when i'm in school.
23. my friends call me samancho.
24. my family calls me fat cat.
25. i am addicted to soup. especially cream of mushroom soup. best invention ever.
26. 9gag is my favourite website in the world. it comes before my blog. 
27. i've got 7 piercings and they're all on my ears.
28. i love spicy food. i love it.
29. teddy bears. enough said.
30. i wish i could deejay.
31. i have a terrible sense of direction. sometimes i don't go home, because i don't know my way.
32. i have never stuck a poster near my bed. my mom doesn't approve of it.
33. i have 7 film cameras. i still want more. #ihaveaproblem
34. all my work has to be in the callibri font and in size 11, or else i get upset.
35. i was born in october. my fave month.
36. i only have one pair of sunnies.
37. i love vans. i love them. i LOOOOOOOOOOVE them.
38. i hate my chinese name. call me by my chinese name and i'll sue you.
39. when i'm in school, i go to school in my pjs. 
40. this is getting tedious. i'm a boring person.
41. i can quote mean girls and she's the man.
42. i loveeee the pink panther. it's so cuteee.
43. someday i'll own a pair of louboutins.
44. i can't walk in heels, but i can run in them. i've got talent.
45. i wear my brother's clothes all the time.
46. i bite my nails when i'm nervous.
47. i like concerts.
48. i'm 5'4''.
49. i want to live by the sea.
50. i don't eat mangoes.

here. 50 random facts about me. until next time, stay safe and wear protection. 

fingers crossed

results day today. right now i'm feeling like this.

hope things are gonna go fine.

let’s toast cause things got better, and everything could change like that.

i have never lived alone. since a young child, i've stayed in the same room as the sister. then i've decided to leave home to go to boarding school 6074 miles away. i thought i could experience the life of being an individual, but i have never been more wrong. 

in the beginning, i shared a room with three to four girls of the same grade. was it a hardship? yes, it definitely was. crazy teenaged girls constantly high on hormones and over-reacting over everything has  been what i've been dealing with for five years. half a decade. mind you that's a pretty long time. do i hate sharing a room with friends/roommates? yes i do. it creates unnecessary tension and it never ends will. then again, there's always another side to a story and there sure is one to this.

i was tidying up my hard disk today and i came across this. me writing my name for some storage at school. i've been in high school for seven years. SEVEN YEARS. that's almost a decade. i've survived without harming myself immensely. wow this is something. i'm actually proud. just one more year of hell high school then i'll be in university. 

let's just say i have a lot of stuff.

then i came across this. my friend writing my name on a card. why would she do that? i don't know. it's not like i don't know how to write my name. however, i don't mind, because jade is one of those rare ones, who i won't ever doubt what she's doing. just like most girls, she does have her hysterical times and her overly-calm times where i just want to beat some sense into her. however at the end of the day i know i can trust her and she would be there for me. this is the true beauty of boarding school. you meet people who genuinely care for you and they stay in your life forever. 

yep. sam lee.

however, she didn't stop at just writing my name; she continued drawing cars and boobs. i mean you know you're close to someone when they start drawing boobs on everything of yours. EVERYTHING, even my work. it's not even funny anymore. this doesn't make me love her any less though. you might be thinking: "you sound like you're in love with her". well i'm not. it's just i'm at that point where i really appreciate someone being in my life.

i don't have a lot of friends and i have never had much. i've always been that weird kid who lurked in the backgrounds, not wanting to stick out. i was never the queen bee, or the ultimate nerd, or the one who did sports, or the one who did everything for attention. hence the limited number of people in my social life. that's why it means so much to me when someone shows or tells me that i matter. that's my achilles' ankle.

so lord, if you're reading this, thank you. thank you for all the friends you've given me and especially for those who will stay in my life. i'm grateful. eternally grateful.

i'm gonna miss this so much

so apparently i cry in cars. great.

who doesn't like some tits?

she was holdin' a pair, but i had to try

so when you're home with your family, you probably would watch a movie or chat. well this isn't what we do in the lee abode. we gamble. big two, poker, black jack, you name it. however, our favourite has always been mahjong. i've been playing since i was in year two. impressive i know. 

today was another normal (gambling) day in the lee's household. as always, my brother was winning. he doesn't really have the skills, but he has the luck. i mean who needs skills when you have luck? he WAS winning until this.

i won't need to explain how good this combo is to people who play mahjong. to people who don't play mahjong, this is harder than winning the lottery, which is 1 in 13,983,816. i'm not the best in maths, but my godbrother helped me calculate the probability of getting this combo and he said some number with seventeen zeros. that doesn't really mean anything to me. all i know this combo has gotten me 300 HKD or 3000 points.

god, i just love home.